r u busy right now?
when ur friends tell you to start a friday
u should tell them u r very busy
with the moon. there is so much of it
to sever & u r tired of being
the person everyone goes to
when the week is killing itself.
u step out into a red scheme & count
ur blessings on ur toes. everyone u know
has been really down lately.
depression coils in the freezer
next to ur pints of ice cream. provisions
for the coming ice rage.
u r looking for a new lover
even though u still have an old one.
at the Good Will everyone is hungry
for a heart. u buy sneakers
& put them on a ghost so you can see
him walking. keep an eye on
that fucker. this weekend
will turn itself inside out
& u will see all its organs.
this morning the planet is getting thinner
& the forecast calls
for dead pigeons. when u find one
u need to bring it inside
to make ash of its body.
paint the ash on the inside
of ur front door for safety.
there r so many precautions these days
to stay alive. all ur friends
with their glowing friday.
choking on marshmallow & dares.
the bound fire shrinks
to the size of a period. a blood stain
echoes on the ceiling.
u r done all ur musts & u r lonely.
ur thoughts echo back at u.
maybe u should have gone to the friday
but they r wild & violent people.
who knows where it would have
ended. u might have lost ur whole
october to that kind of fever.
then again, someone might have kissed u.
someone might have
touched u with his, her, they teeth
& turned u into the bright obelisk
u want to be. the moon
weeps in daggers. goodnight.
Robin Gow (they/them or ze/hir) is a trans and queer poet and young adult author. They are the author of Our Lady of Perpetual Degeneracy (Tolsun Books, 2020) and the chapbook Honeysuckle (Finishing Line Press, 2019). Gow’s first Young Adult book is forthcoming Winter 2022 with FSG Books for Young Readers.